For the longest time, I was against makeup and would never wear it. For the longest time all of my decisions on what i liked would be based off of how it would make my family feel, or my friends feel, or the strangers around me. It took me years to realize that i need to like things for myself, i need to do things for myself, i need to think about myself too.
This picture is a huge milestone for me. It took years for me to build up the courage to wear makeup. I was always so insecure about myself and i had no self-confidence. I never let it show but it was there. I was always thinking about what others thought of me and i would buy clothes thinking ‘yeah others will like this’ instead of ‘i love this.’
I never put makeup on because i knew once i took it off i would hate myself even more than i already did.
Slowly i began to change my mindset. I found the youtuber blogilaties and after exercising with her for a year I learned to be fit for myself and get healthy for myself not for others. Then on the day of my homecoming dance I looked in the mirror and said ‘I want to put makeup on.’ I wanted it. No one suggested it to me, no one made me, I PUT IT ON.
I went from rejecting my sisters offers to do my makeup to asking them to help me with it.
I have finally reached the point where i KNOW i glow with or without it. I am free of a weight of constant worry about my appearance. I can finally practice what i preach to all of my friends and let go. .
Do things for you because in the end this is YOUR life. This is YOUR mind. I hope one day everyone can reach their confidence. Let YOURSELF shine.
I hope this made sense and i hope that it helps people. I hope this is that boost for people struggling with self confidence. I know how it feels. I know how horrible it feels. Don’t lock yourself up, don’t change for others. It is the biggest mistake of your life.
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